Yesterday was the very last day at aaj...the very last of it...it will never be the same again..i used to spend my nights there for 2 years..the hardship i cant forget n' trial..all of it..i treasure each of them as if they are a part of me..
I left my room at about 9 pm..before i lock the door..as i step out..i looked at it for one last time..i expect to cry..but i am too unhuman to do that..i just let my eyes moist...n absorb it back..helpless...it runs through nose..everyone knows that..but that never counts..
I thanked it..i talked to it as if it's alive...living as part of the memories..B434..had gave me a good life..adventure..a life-time worth to remember..but that's x the last part..
B434 always has a living soul in it..so special..thought to be a young girl..named Anis Bira..no..it is x a ghost neither a real spirit..it is our memory...it will never fade..it will live..there, forever. I trusted her to protecte what there is..so the memories x fade..x to be forgotten..
I have a lot to tell..but it just cant get out..i dun know how to express it all in one go...now that my friends and I are going to Japan..We cant be together anymore...our usual life have changed and i hate changes...because it might turn well...and it might x turn well..too uncertain that i scared the hell out of me...because every single bad thing i predict will come true...it's hardly wrong..
But this isn't about that at all..it's x actually what i feel..it's how it will turn out...all of ma friends have to go to separate place to study..not everyone is so lucky to have their companion..but neway some do...
What am i writing may be sound sad..but i cant get the feeling yet...something wrong with me...then i thought maybe because i dun yet feel like im losing them...That's y i can still sit back and relax..
But one real thing that i want to say is...they are the best friend i had in my entire life...they really care about me...no matter who i am...how i am...they accepted me for what i am...they criticize me..hit me as a friend..i never accept that as a good thing before...they ALLOW me to be myself..they always give me chance to do i what i want to do..in my own personal way..i dun have to hide myself..i can Xpose myself 100% if i want...that is wrong and odd but im pretty sure it's x a big deal to them bcoz they know me...better than i am...better than i want them to know me..
They really care...they are truly a friend...i am so grateful to have them...i dun know if i can get a friend as good as them in the future...we laugh, we cried, we rocked together...i hope that will never change...even if we meet again one day...even if we're separated far from each other..bcoz..we still have shikansen..we still have flight to ride on..lol..(that is joke in a sad way)..
I will never forget u guys...even if i do..my heart won't..
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Let's stay together itsumo guys..
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