It`s Darkness

Somehow today I broke down. Now?? Well not that bright but better i think. What I`m really trying to say here is that. The feeling is so different when we are happy and when we are emo. It`s like we turned into another person. Does this happen to you too? Well, I do. This is the darkness thought i had.

I would like to grief without being asked why...

Why bother being bright when you are not?

Do I really have to smile?

This world is so heart-breaking.

Why being nice when they think it`s awkward?


Yes. That`s what I thought. I dun really know the reason. Maybe surrounding, some reactions. But that`s not the main point.

What I think is, the darkness is needed to digest all the emo, the bad feelings. We might suffer for some times, but of course that helps. It acts like a temporary black hole that absorbs almost anything.

Sometimes when we try to achieve something, we went emo....then someone came and tell us not to give up n to keep trying. Do you like that? Most of the time we do, but we are actually sick being told to do the right thing. Am I wrong? We just need time to give up for a while. For me, giving up is a part of process. If you are not agree I hate you. (still x in the mood).

That`s all for now.............this darkness shouldn`t end yet.